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Update

I guess it’s time for an update. Whether or not it’s factually true, the last post I remember leaving here, was of my commitment to the final Lesson of the Holy Spirit: Be Vigilant Only for God and His Kingdom (T-6.V.C., p. 108). That was some time ago.

In the meantime, I have learned many things. I have found my freedom. Judgment is God’s, and He has judged Us as Good. End of story.

Then, there is the Workbook. Lesson 1. Nothing I see…means anything….Lesson 4. These thoughts do not mean anything….Lesson 32. I have invented the world I see. Etc.

That’s freedom. Meanwhile,  Lesson 29. God is in everything I see….because God is in my mind (Lesson 30). That’s the real world, the world you see when (you know) God is in your mind. It’s still an illusion, but it’s a happy dream.

My Amma t-shirt says, “Happiness is a choice.” And Lesson 121 says Forgiveness is the key to happiness. So, forgiveness is a choice. As God’s Son, everything is a choice, except my One Identity in Him.

I could go on and on, quoting the Course, but I won’t. If you’re looking for a way to achieve liberation from the pain and suffering of this separated world, you need look no further. If you continue to study it, you will realize the Self. And, you will have a thorough and complete guide for living the happy dream on Earth.

If you have any questions, please ask them. And, maybe I’ll write some more.

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Lessons Along the Way

It’s been a long time since I posted anything on my blog, and my last post declared change in the making.   We’re selling our house and that’s a major change, too. So, I thought I’d try and catch up on the last change first.

I began with the idea of making the body a neutral thing in my mind. Once I committed myself to the third step in the Holy Spirit’s curriculum, Be Vigilant Only for God and His Kingdom, seeing the world as a dream, so to speak, became pretty easy. In other words, it became easier to see the ego and its tricks, without judgment, and to just reduce, reuse, and recycle them.

At first, I started asking Jesus should I do this or that, and following his answers. But, after eliminating some activities that had become part of my daily routine for good reasons, I soon found myself wanting to reuse them. So, I asked him if it would be okay if I did them, and he said yes. From this I understood that it might be easier to change my mind if I just let them go, especially if I were to become a vagabond, but I could continue those practices with discrimination and they needn’t be an impediment.

Having already let them go, I now have a lighter hold on them. Where they had become ritual, I no longer feel like I have to do them every day. Instead, I can ask what the day requires and act accordingly.

Another attachment I had to address was the thought I am a Teacher. Jesus advises us to teach what we are learning. But, in the Manual for Teachers, he makes it clear that we are to teach by example. He says that everyone is teaching what they are learning all the time. And, because we are all equal members of the Sonship, no one is better (or worse) than anyone else. Specialness is a ploy of the ego.

I became more involved in Course groups on Facebook. And I soon learned that I had tried to compromise the Course. The biggest stumbling block for most students is the idea that the world is not real. And we will try to revise the Course to keep the world over and over until we see it clearly with “the eyes of the Holy Spirit.” The Course gives us concepts like “true perception,” “the real world,” and “the happy dream” to describe the transformation of our experience in the world as we learn to practice forgiveness, but the ego invariably tempts us to make these concepts real, which is to say eternal. So, getting out there and expressing my views soon made me aware of my mistakes, for which I was grateful. This has only encouraged me to remain active and remember that I am a student.

I have also learned that there are many learning styles and even ones that seem to contradict my own are working for those that use them. Again, with forgiveness I am accepting and acknowledging their value, which enlarges my universe through the extension of love, which is our God-given nature.

All of this comes down to the importance of making a commitment and what my Teacher called “stepping out on faith.” When you find the truth and want to stand for it in the world, you step out on your word; you act in accordance with the truth, as you understand it. You will make mistakes and by them, you will expand your understanding. The only thing at risk is your ego, the self you made, and the truth is it isn’t real in a lasting sense, and you can make a better one, and keep on making better ones until you learn that you can completely forget the self you made and just let the Self we all are run the show completely.

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Me and My Body

Sung to the tune of Me And My Shadow, it is interesting that the “me” in the song is obviously the body. But, as A Course in Miracles says,

God did not make the body, because it is destructible, and therefore not of the Kingdom. The body is the symbol of what you think you are. It is clearly a separation device, and therefore does not exist…(The Holy Spirit) always tells you that only the mind is real because only the mind can be shared. The body is separate, and therefore cannot be a part of you. To be of one mind is meaningful, but to be one body is meaningless. By the laws of mind, then, the body is meaningless

ACIM T-6.V.A.2.1-3 & 3.2-5

So, the “me” in this post is what Ken Wapnick calls the Decision-Maker, aka the soul. Like everyone else on Earth, I soon learned the dual nature of physical manifestation, that pain follows pleasure. The first dramatic lesson came when I was ten years old and caught polio in the public swimming pool, a year before the vaccine came out. While I had a mild case, it restricted my athletic ability, which gave me emotional pain, and as the body aged, the resulting Scoliosis has given me physical pain.

Addressing the Law of Karma, my spiritual Teacher taught that personal responsibility begins at age ten. Prior to that, whatever befell us was our parents’ responsibility. So, I figured the polio had been an effect of a prior miscreation of mine and by accepting that limitation I had cleared the way for the spiritual progress I was realizing in this life.

In the section of Chapter 2 in the Course entitled Cause and Effect, Jesus says that fear comes from thoughts, and “The fearful must miscreate, because they misperceive creation (and) When you miscreate you are in pain (ACIM, T-2.VII.3:8-9).” So, our thoughts create and thoughts based on false premises miscreate, which causes pain.

In the Introduction to the Text of ACIM, Jesus says, “The opposite of love is fear, but what is all-encompassing can have no opposite,” and sums up the Course with “Nothing real can be threatened. Nothing unreal exists.” Thus, fear is a miscreation, is unreal and does not exist. And it follows that pain is also unreal and does not exist. In fact, one could extend a bit further and realize that this body and hence, the world, are also unreal and do not exist.

Be that as it may, my situation is such that I do feel pain, which means I experience myself as a body subject to misperception, fear and miscreation. And, as my life progressed beyond my Teacher’s lifetime, I became embroiled in the confusion of this world like everyone else. I made the world real in my mind, sought my own personal advantage, believed in the dream of separation, and enlisted in magic to solve my “problems.”

All who believe in separation have a basic fear of retaliation and abandonment. They believe in attack and rejection, so that is what they perceive and teach and learn. These insane ideas are clearly the result of dissociation and projection. What you teach you are, but it is quite apparent that you can teach wrongly, and can therefore teach yourself wrong.

ACIM, T-6.V-B.1:1-4

Perceiving myself as having been abandoned, I adopted Mantak Chia’s Taoist Secrets of Love, without abandoning my belief in separation. The resulting sex addiction simply increased the pain from the Scoliosis. Every addiction follows the same pattern of cause and effect. The ego’s mantra of sin, guilt and fear, based on the separation idea, reinforces the addictive behavior, whether the addiction is to substances or processes (like codependence or sex).

Fear is always a sign of strain, arising whenever what you want conflicts with what you do. ²This situation arises in two ways: First, you can choose to do conflicting things, either simultaneously or successively. ³This produces conflicted behavior, which is intolerable to you because the part of the mind that wants to do something else is outraged. ⁴Second, you can behave as you think you should, but without entirely wanting to do so. ⁵This produces consistent behavior, but entails great strain. ⁶In both cases, the mind and the behavior are out of accord, resulting in a situation in which you are doing what you do not wholly want to do. ⁷This arouses a sense of coercion that usually produces rage, and projection is likely to follow. ⁸Whenever there is fear, it is because you have not made up your mind. ⁹Your mind is therefore split, and your behavior inevitably becomes erratic. ¹⁰Correcting at the behavioral level can shift the error from the first to the second type, but will not obliterate the fear.

ACIM, T-2.VI.5:1-10

In seeking to diminish the pain from the Scoliosis, I found the Somatic Movement Center and a series of exercises that increased my subtle awareness, giving me conscious control over the autonomic nervous system and reprogramming the muscles that have distorted the skeletal structure of my body. But, I found that my addictive behavior reinforced the old muscle tensions, interfering with the healing process. Therefore, I have to give up the fear-based addiction. “³No one who learns from experience that one choice brings peace and joy while another brings chaos and disaster needs additional convincing (ACIM, T-4.VI.3:3).” I must “Be vigilant only for God and His Kingdom (ACIM, T-6.V-C.2:8)”.

The Holy Spirit calls you both to remember and to forget. ²You have chosen to be in a state of opposition in which opposites are possible. ³As a result, there are choices you must make. ⁴In the holy state the will is free, so that its creative power is unlimited and choice is meaningless. ⁵Freedom to choose is the same power as freedom to create, but its application is different. ⁶Choosing depends on a split mind. ⁷The Holy Spirit is one way of choosing. ⁸God did not leave His children comfortless, even though they chose to leave Him. ⁹The voice they put in their minds was not the Voice for His Will, for which the Holy Spirit speaks.

ACIM, T-5.II.6:1-9
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Stand In the Light of Christ

I was interviewed this week by Wanako Oberhuber of The Holy Spirit’s Curriculum of Joy Podcast. As Wanako describes it, “We hear how Michael started his awakening and the journey through the priesthood to A Course In Miracles. There are so many take aways you will enjoy applying to your own lives.”

I talked about the things I learned from experience in an amazing non-denominational, non-sectarian, religious order that ordained both men and women to the priesthood and allowed priests and brothers and sisters to marry and raise families, and performed many miracles on a daily basis.

I also spoke about the pain of separation I felt when the order gradually disintegrated into religious orthodoxy, and the challenge of reentering the world and dropping that religious identity to pursue a worldly vocation. I talked about my search for spiritual connection and the places I found it: Western Sufism, Tibetan Buddhism, Sanatana Dharma and, finally, A Course in Miracles.

I shared my healing from a painful divorce, my self-therapy, and my second awakening to the Self Within; and, healing the aging body from Scoliosis, the effect of childhood polio. I describe the Power of the Word, Devotion, and the importance of showing up in your life. The video is right here, and the podcast is here. I hope you enjoy it and find some inspiration thereby.

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The Healing Power of Playfulness

Happy St. Patrick’s Day! I got up at 3:50 AM on purpose this morning to watch a live podcast, hosted by Wanako Oberhuber of The Holy Spirit’s Curriculum of Joy. He was interviewing Vicki Thomas Poppe, whose husband Ted Poppe, Jr. recently went through transition. That lasted an hour and a half, and then I watched the St. Patrick’s Day Parade in Dublin, Ireland.

It was a very unusual morning for me. I’m in the habit of transferring directly from the bed to my meditation chair, and after half an hour or so, giving myself an Ayurvedic oil massage, followed by an hour of somatic movement exercises while the oil soaks in, and then a shower and breakfast. And I don’t usually get up that early. So, today was really different!

I think breaking my routine every now and then is really good for me. It made me more present to what was happening right here and now. With a Virgo Moon, I’m a pattern-maker. But my Moon is square Uranus, the change-agent, and opposite my Mars in Pisces, the empath. And, of course, Vicki is a great speaker and knows A Course in Miracles very well. She’s been involved in a lot of its history. So, while she was speaking, I looked up some of the events she referred to.

Gary Renard and Dr. Ken Wapnick were involved and had things to say about those events, too. There was conflict and sides were taken and noted. Another of my main patterns is my Sun in Aries opposite my Neptune in Libra and square Saturn in Cancer. As they were my teachers of the Course, I’d taken their sides and still do. But, Ted was on the other side. He may have had a personality disorder during that time but, after his second awakening and getting back with Vicki, he made amends to 20,000 people and was a really amicable guy.

So, Vicki’s and Wanako’s conversation transformed into a discussion of playfulness, after she got him to talk about his Master’s thesis in Cultural Anthropology, in which he documented kite-flying and volleyball behaviors as a participant-observer on an Austrian island set aside for playfulness. Vicki noted the ever-present element of playfulness in her husband’s oppositional-defiant behavior, which seems to be a quality of the T-square that I have recognized as a participant-observer in my own life.

Although this behavior is often calculated to upset the symbols of the status quo, it often has the element of fun in it. The Yippies were an excellent example of this exposing the emperor has no clothes phenomenon among the governing elites. As we have seen, they usually fail to see the humor in the situation and often strike out blindly, like Nixon with his War on Drugs or Obama et al v. Julian Assange, etc.

My takeaway is that, whenever there is conflict in the world, the ego is involved–on both sides. To the ego, mistakes are really serious. They’re called sins, which trigger guilt, fear, and punishment. So, the ego leaves a blatantly obvious trail of tears in its wake. But, our split mind has another half, which is the Holy Spirit–the Memory of God. He sees right through the illusion and knows that errors are not real. His response: “Silly dream (gentle laughter),” which is our cue to forgiveness. And, the result is peace.